Outcomes, successes, money, material things, etc will not last if achieved by deceit, shortcut, or to prove someone else wrong. Rather than inviting these things because you believe yourself worthy of them, a person begins hoarding them to alter an outcome (attachment and lack) or to prove to someone else that they are worthy.
I keep witnessing over and over… people confusing chemistry or “it” w/ the excitement of “new” or other people’s drama. Escaping reality may start out fun but ultimately… it is not the same as seeing and truly being seen. The difference…. One is still passively letting life “happen” to you, (aka sabotaging yourself and the goodness created), so in a way avoiding facing yourself and blocking your growth. The other pushes a person to be fully present, trust the process, learn to let the discomfort flow through you to come out stronger on the other side. Probably the best thing I learned to deal with discomfort, anger, confusion, panic attacks is just let it flow through my body until it’s subsided, no matter how uncomfortable it is. I could run and push down these feelings a thousand other ways, but they’ve always nearly killed me and destroyed everything I love. And it just comes back even stronger. To illustrate this method… please refer to and enjoy this picture of emperor Palpetine…
you get none of my sweetness
the resolve it took in choosing you
none of my comfort
none of my fierceness (didn’t you know how much I was carrying?)
you get none of my softness
the strength it took to call off the wolves
none of my source
just how you wanted
… i am not a hotel room. i am home.
i am not the whiskey you want
i am the water you need
so don’t come here with expectations
and try to make a vacation out of me…