Pale Blue

“When my husband died, because he was so famous and known for not being a believer, many people would come up to me-it still sometimes happens-and ask me if Carl changed at the end and converted to a belief in an afterlife. They also frequently ask me if I think I will see him again. Carl faced his death with unflagging courage and never sought refuge in illusions. The tragedy was that we knew we would never see each other again. I don’t ever expect to be reunited with Carl. But, the great thing is that when we were together, for nearly twenty years, we lived with a vivid appreciation of how brief and precious life is. We never trivialized the meaning of death by pretending it was anything other than a final parting. Every single moment that we were alive and we were together was miraculous-not miraculous in the sense of inexplicable or supernatural. We knew we were beneficiaries of chance. . . . That pure chance could be so generous and so kind. . . . That we could find each other, as Carl wrote so beautifully in Cosmos, you know, in the vastness of space and the immensity of time. . . . That we could be together for twenty years. That is something which sustains me and it’s much more meaningful. . . . The way he treated me and the way I treated him, the way we took care of each other and our family, while he lived. That is so much more important than the idea I will see him someday. I don’t think I’ll ever see Carl again. But I saw him. We saw each other. We found each other in the cosmos, and that was wonderful.”
― Ann Druyan

Check Your Intent

Outcomes, successes, money, material things, etc will not last if achieved by deceit, shortcut, or to prove someone else wrong. Rather than inviting these things because you believe yourself worthy of them, a person begins hoarding them to alter an outcome (attachment and lack) or to prove to someone else that they are worthy.

This is not IT

I keep witnessing over and over… people confusing chemistry or “it” w/ the excitement of “new” or other people’s drama. Escaping reality may start out fun but ultimately… it is not the same as seeing and truly being seen. The difference…. One is still passively letting life “happen” to you, (aka sabotaging yourself and the goodness created), so in a way avoiding facing yourself and blocking your growth. The other pushes a person to be fully present, trust the process, learn to let the discomfort flow through you to come out stronger on the other side. Probably the best thing I learned to deal with discomfort, anger, confusion, panic attacks is just let it flow through my body until it’s subsided, no matter how uncomfortable it is. I could run and push down these feelings a thousand other ways, but they’ve always nearly killed me and destroyed everything I love. And it just comes back even stronger. To illustrate this method… please refer to and enjoy this picture of emperor Palpetine…