This > That

I wake up every day so grateful
That I love my dog more than I want to jump in front of a train 

That I want to love and be loved 
More than I want to jump in front of a train 

Because every single day I really, really 
Really want to jump in front of a train  

Photo (C) Man Ray

No one ever fully warns you how terrifying love is. We live with this myth that there’s some magic answer, chasing after absolutely nothing. Realizing that, is changing everything you know about existence and every familiar habit we escape to. It’s standing on firm ground when you want to run, it’s knowing instead of doubting. It’s trusting yourself. It’s opening when you want to shut down. It’s right fucking here, this is what we are built for.